At the moment I am going through a transition. I am at a crossroads where I have to realise that some things have come to an end, but I am beginning to feel inspired again. My soul is awake and that gives me energy. A sense of creativity is coming to the fore. I am hoping to start writing soon. I know what my book will be about, but at the same time, this pioneering instinct within me is awakening. It needs new challenges and to learn new things.
I guess this is something that happens to us as we reach different phases in life. What do I leave behind and what do I continue with? It is a wonderful experience to allow this confusion. I need to revise my old inner structure, how I view that inner world. It is a bit unsettling, but change is a process. All things come to an end.
I have had some amazing experiences as a person and a medium, but now I want to go deeper. When I put a structure to my feelings and thoughts it will give me a map that I can follow. It is a very important part of change.
One mistake I must not make is to try to make things go quickly. It is important that I let time create a structure and the pathway that I need to follow to go to the next phase of my life. Like many of you I can have a realisation one day and the next I have to tell myself to slow down and let everything fall into place. To approach something new, you must not do it in a haste. It will only let you down. As I always say to my students: The quickest way is the slowest way. This can give you much more experience.
Ascala walks with me and I cannot hide anything from him. What would my life be without him? I have been able to accept many challenges on behalf of spirit and as I write those words, I can see him smiling again. What I realise again and again is that this entity that follows me gives me great insight into my own ego. I have to listen to it, but sometimes it is hard for me to listen. When I decided to sell the school and to downsize it was not easy, but it was time to enter another phase in my life.
I have chosen to walk a pathway where there has been criticism and condemnation, but all the criticism I have received, both positive and negative has made me realise who I am and along the way it has given me balance in my life. When someone tells me that what I do is wrong, that it is negative, it is their right, but one thing I do know, the Ascala intelligence that walks with me will always help me – as long as I listen to my feelings and my thoughts.
I cannot betray that intelligence that has transformed my life. It has saved my life on a few occasions, because I listened. This amazing intelligence gives me hope. It has taught me is that if someone confronts you, criticise what you do. That is a test too. It can be extremely useful, because when I am challenged like that, I have to look at myself and check to see that the other person is not right: Have I lost my way?
This offers me enlightenment in life. The Ascala intelligence hopefully keeps me on the straight and narrow, so to speak. The challenges are the test. I cannot let the fear take over. I cannot be a dancing bear for anybody and dance to their tune, just because we have different beliefs.
Where I am now in life, I am hopeful. My energy and enthusiasm are returning and I feel good.
How are you feeling? Where are you in your life?