About four years ago, Ascala came to me and said:
– We are going to lighten the load on your shoulders.
I wondered what it meant, but he just said:
– Wait and see. You must trust me, because now you need to let go of some of that load, so that you can move on to the next step.
What was comforting at the time was his words: “We will lighten the load.” I started thinking: How? When? Where? Over the years, I had made such a commitment to my work, but not to myself. I had no clue what he meant, but there was no way I was going to get the answers by using my intellect. The answers we seek will only come through your feelings.
Covid-19 stopped many of us in our tracks and made us think. I had already decided to sell the school before that. It was time, my soul had nothing more to give it. He said there will be some difficult times, but that he would be by my side. Even if I could not see him.
We sold the school and our home and moved south to Frändefors outside of Vänersborg. It was a new beginning. I began to realise what Ascala had meant.
The first months in Frändefors was about getting our home ready. I did not realise it at first, but it felt as if I had lost my momentum, my ambition and my purpose. My brain was not as active as it usually was. I could wake up in the morning realising that I had time to think about who I was and what I wanted.
Ascala said, just a few days ago: Now you are living in Frändefors you do not carry as much responsibility as you did before. That is why we want to give you time to redefine where you are in life and who you are. You need to update who you are as a person, because there are parts of yourself that you have neglected and it is now time to get in touch with those aspects. We have new things for you to explore and first and foremost it is about going back to Terry. We know you are a restless soul, but you do not have to think about the future. That will come to you. The period that you go through at the moment is about rest of recuperation. Once the purpose of that has been achieved you will have no doubt about what direction to go.
One way or another you will always have a need to work, but now is the time for you to discover the things that you once enjoyed as a person. The answers will come to you. Do not allow you impatience or restlessness take you into directions that are not meant for you. Just sit and be quiet, change is coming, but not in the way you ask.
Selling the school was just us guiding you to the next phase of your life. Enjoy the weeks to come. Have some fun and take one day as it comes. You will have no doubt when we intervene. See each communication with me as a series that will take you to the next phase of your life. Just trust. Even we know that your restless spirit needs food and nourishment. We have listened to what you have said to us. We like that you have made no demands, an open mind will be to your benefit. If we were to tell you now, you would not believe us. Where this next phase is taking you, you will be surprised. Never forget that the sprit intelligence walks along side with you. I will be in touch…