As far back as I can remember I have had a vivid imagination, as my teachers at school would call it. I have always been curious as a person. I have had a need to understand and focus, to understand what is going on within and around me. I have always loved to listen to stories and to tell stories, it has been very important to me. Because of that aspect within me I early on realised that there is a very creative part of me, the problem is, at times it knows no bounds.
There is also a part of me that loves to explore, the pioneering spirit. I have always loved to go into the unknown. I love mysteries. I love to dive into anything that does not have an answer. Of course I have not had an answer to everything I have investigated but there has been many times when I have been given an answer or a solution. Every time I explore something unknown my consciousness expands and it has helped me develop my natural abilities.
There has been times when I have reached crossroads and found myself to be indecisive as to which direction to take, but at the same time it is important to give ourselves time to think: What do I want? What do I feel I should do? I have realised that I must wait, I must be patient and allow synchronicity and self-realisation to show me what my souls intelligence is and in what direction it wants to take me. It is a process that eventually will give me the right answer or the feeling in which direction to go.
But, I have a strong will and I am sometimes a quite determined person. Normally when I reach a crossroads I hear that little voice saying: “Slow down. Do not let your own will take over.” On my life’s journey I have met many crossroads and there has been many occasions when I have taken the wrong direction because of my will.
The reason why I am writing this is because so many people come to me and ask: What should I do with my live? What are my abilities? When using intuition or working as a medium very often I can see what a person’s natural ability is, but meeting that is also a process. To meet that ability, to embrace it, also takes patience. It is done step by step, day by day. It is not just dished out on a plate.
The journey we make is based on who we are and what natural intelligence we came into this life with. This intelligence is our friend and our companion. We need to learn how to use it in an appropriate manner, not to be in a rush etcetera. As I write this I have a smile on my face remembering the times I have gone in the wrong direction and I have had to say: “Terry, do not blame anyone else.” When our will takes over it can blind us so that we delude ourselves.
When we get the signal it is time for change there will always be a period of confusion and indecisiveness. That is important. When I am in these periods I receive comments or suggestions on what I should be doing with my abilities and so often it can be useful to me, as a peace of the puzzle that I can add to the expanding picture. It is almost like being given a map.
I was talking to a very wise lady the other day, who has worked with people for many years. She said: “Sometimes when we are very busy and focusing on many different things we can also become blind and not realise our own worth.” That made a lot of sense to where I am in my life now.
I have been at a crossroads, one could say, for three years. Now the sun is beginning to shine between the clouds and I am beginning to see the light. I have to dare to listen to these comments that spirit and people make about me. So where am I now, I am excited, new things are happening and new possibilities are showing themselves. I am getting new ideas that are freeing me up to do new things with Gamla Byskolan and my work with research ant the frequencies that I use. Things are slowly starting to fall into place.
I am optimistic about 2019, I am curious and I have a feeling I have to take more risks. If I do not take risks I cannot explore new things. This year is going to be interesting! I will meet new people and situations that I have never met before.