The story begins by me sitting at home one evening, relaxing and watching TV. Suddenly Ascala started saying to me over and over again:
– Go to the local spiritual church where you had your reading.
In the end I said okay. Off I went to the spiritualist church thinking Ascala wanted me to have another private sitting. The spiritualist church was only a stone throws way from my home.
Upon arriving there I was greeted by a polite, elderly gentleman. He asked me why I had come. I informed him that I wanted to have a private sitting with the medium I met there before. The man said:
– Unfortunately there is no medium in attendance here this evening, but we are just about to start a medium development group, would you like to join us?
I heard my voice answering:
At the same time I was wondering what it was I was getting myself into.
A few minutes later I was sitting in a group with people I had never met before.
– What is it that I am meant to do?
– We are going to go into silence, which is our tool to receive spirit, the man replied.
In those days the group were opened up by the group leader offering a prayer, after which we went into silence. The prayer was offered to open our minds just to receive from spirit.
The man informed us about the procedure:
– Sit quietly during the meditation. Then you will be drawn to various people in the group and you might get colours or pictures about them. It is very important you do not try to understand anything or question. Just receive the information like with the mind of a child.
“I was totally absorbed with what I was experiencing and it was amazing.
As I opened up it was like an explosion for me, it was as if I had entered another dimension, but I did not know what it was. I was totally absorbed with what I was experiencing and it was amazing. At the end of the meditation when the lights went back on and it came to my turn to offer what I had received to the other participants I just communicated it literally in the way I had received it.
I could say: I saw this picture or person with you. I had a strong feeling. I heard a voice within my mind etcetera. The voice I had heard was kind of the same as Ascalas. It was another world. What amazed me was that much of what I had offered to the individuals, they recognised as spirit contacts, but how could they understand when I did not understand it myself?
These experiences were difficult to take in and absorb in the beginning. Later on I realised that I had had these experiences all my life, but I had not realised it was spirit contacts. I just thought it was imagination. But now I started to understand how spirit had been talking to me all my life through pictures, feelings and words. I was beginning to understand what it had meant. But as a child I was not emotionally developed, so it was difficult for me to separate what was me and what was from spirit.
“Even today I try to remember that early lesson that spirit gave me: Just be the kind of channel just to receive without having to understand, analyse or question.
From this first experience the door was opened. I can remember this experience as clearly as if it was yesterday. I just gave without feeling any expectation or demand. There were no pressure on preforming or offering result. I will never forget this experience, because it came to me with such ease. I did not have any preconceived ideas.
Even today I try to remember that early lesson that spirit gave me: Just be the kind of channel just to receive without having to understand, analyse or question. When I do that I am a much better channel for spirit and it is much easier for the recipient to understand the information coming through. When my ego is put to one side I do not make unconscious demands on myself and it works so much better and it is much more fun.