In many respects human beings have a herd instinct; we try to be part of a collective identity. At the same time we are individuals with a unique identity. One of the hardest things to do is to find a middle road between our collective identity and our own identity. Often we humans do not like to feel alone or isolated. We want to be able to identify with something, whether it be a group or organisation that shares the same philosophy, ideals or subculture. However, sometimes the mistake we make is trying to be like everybody else; we do not pay enough attention to who we really are.
This is where my guides and my spiritual inspirers have been of great help. They inspire me, in many different ways, to walk a road that supports my spiritual development. But at the same time I have to live my earthly life. People see me as this person, who has this special contact with the spirit world. But it is equally important to have a contact with the people I meet in my everyday life, and therein is the balance. Some people think that, because I am a medium, the focus is on spiritual things. Like I have said many times: “Before I am a medium, I am Terry Evans.” My work as a medium and how I perceive and believe in life, or the life hereafter, is just a part of me.
I have had my struggles when wanting to belong to a group, but at the same time I have wanted to follow my truth. Sometimes that can feel like you are juggling and it can be hard work and bring you into conflict with yourself. There are still times when I struggle like this. I can feel a sense of isolation, to be a medium can be a very lonely place. Perhaps some of you reading this text have similar experiences?
I have seen people go to extremes: their herd instinct takes over and therefore they lose touch with who they are. On the other hand, there are those who go to the other the extreme; all they can do is think and live confined within their own belief as an individual. In so doing isolating themselves to the point where they lose touch with the reality around them.
Where am I?
Well, if we could liken this to scales, it means there is always movement, nothing remains static. For example: I have my moments where I am completely focused on spirit, my work and how I am thinking and feeling. And then, as if a window opens, I realize that I am losing contact with those around me. I have become too insular and that can take on the form of neglect, without it being intentional. Sometimes it feels like I am walking in a time warp! There are times when I really do need to focus and ask myself: Have I gone too far so I am losing contact with who I am, or vice versa – am I too focused on myself?
Whatever the case, if my spirit guides feel I need a little nudge, to go back into the right direction in order to find balance, they will intervene and offer a little extra help. Especially if they see that I am really trying to help myself and I am ready to take responsibility.
I belong to a group of people that in some respects are like-minded or different in the extreme. I need input from both. At the same time I need to keep track of my beliefs and my opinions that are working for me currently. But who knows, everything might change next week and I walk into a time warp again. Perhaps no one has the answers to my thoughts, but maybe it can prove thoughts.
Where are you on your road? Are you in a place where you are in one extreme or another?