As I have said many times, my work is a way of life and not a job. It is who I am. It is a job that demands great commitment and it suits my pioneering nature. I would not want it to change, because this work offers me a lot in the way of challenge and impetus. That is the kind of format I need to work within, but I can become so absorbed in my work that I neglect my own personal needs and lose contact with what I should give to myself.
Many years ago I asked God or spirit for something that was very special for me. They told me that first I had to clean the cobwebs from my heart, which they would help me with, and then my wish would be granted. However, before that could happen I had to go through a process. It was not always pleasant, but sometimes it gave moments of joy. In fact, I had neglected the needs of my heart, without realizing it I had not given it the nourishment it needed.
A few years ago I had this huge realization: A very special person came into my life and knocked on doors within me that I had not opened for a long time, or never before. This person, or messenger from spirit, brought me in touch with many new feelings and with what I needed to have in my life. It was a huge revelation, which brought me into better balance than I perhaps have ever had in my life before. A well-known medium, predicted this as we were having a cup of coffee at TV4 one day. Even though I understood what this medium was trying to convey, I did not understand what impact it would have upon me.
‘I believe I have worked with my heart, because now I understand better what I need just to be an ordinary man.
It has almost been like opening a door to a room that for a long, long time has lay in waste. It needed the shutters to be open and the curtains to be pulled back so that the light of day could shine through the window again. The furniture needed dusting in order to bring that room back to its’ original grandeur. Every piece of furniture in that room, every beautiful thing symbolizes a need that I have neglected. That room is my heart and in opening my heart I have found this beautiful place.
Interestingly enough, as I walked into that room I discovered a completely new feeling, a feeling of wellbeing and peace. So that messenger from the light, who gave me the key to my heart, helped me discover a way forward to a new life, with a whole new dynamic. This feeling is something I still am learning to live with and understand. I cannot tell the feeling how it should be and it only works if it is unconditional, without prejudice or demand. It is almost as if the feeling is saying: Let me work for you in my way, not in your way and then what you wished for all these years ago will be granted.
I believe I have worked with my heart, because now I understand better what I need just to be an ordinary man. I am also beginning to realise that my heart, this beautiful room, has many different windows that not just allow light in, it also sends out light. As it does that it attracts the people, the situations and the resource that it so badly needs.
I thank you, my wife, Astrid, who carried this message from the light and illuminated my shadows. That new feeling that I had not recognized before has given me the opportunity to improve the language of my heart. I am so grateful.
I wonder if any of you have similar experiences.