During the last few weeks, it is like being in a room with many doors and actually having time to discover the contents behind them. I do not have to try to understand everything, I am just supposed to be in that place. What will be will be. Interestingly enough I feel so calm. I do not feel a stress to produce or find answers. This is truly not a bad place, it is so calm and peaceful, I have time to explore and to be present in the here and now.
This is a place that brings back forgotten memories and warm feelings. It is like revisiting old friends that I have not seen in some time. In this place I am not in a hurry, time is endless. I am walking through my life in a more leisurely pace, at the same time as if I am receiving a spring cleaning. I am beginning to see people and situations around me in a new light. It is a peaceful feeling, it intrigues me. This neutral place welcomes me in when I least expect it.
“I am at a cross roads in my own life now where I am clearing out things because I want to go forward and not just work 24-7.
In this place I am not alone. I can turn to this place just to experience and have company; it does not demand anything from me. It leaves me with a feeling of wellbeing. People that have passed over many years ago come back to talk to me, it is amazing! These are the first people that started working with me and teaching me when I started developing my mediumship in 1972.
I am at a cross roads in my own life now where I am clearing out things because I want to go forward and not just work 24-7. That is the way it is running a course centre. As I now stand at a fresh beginning, I feel that my decision to move on has been right. I am looking forward to the new experience. I am optimistic to experience this new phase in my life and I will keep an open mind as to what it has to offer. Just now it is as if I am floating from day to day; living my life attending to my responsibilities, but I find myself more relaxed than I have been in years.
With each day passing I have had the opportunity to be more deeply connected with myself and I have made myself a little promise to try to not be so demanding to myself. I hope I can live that.
I am not the same person I was before the outbreak of Covid19, something within me has changed.
How do you feel?