When a phase in life comes to an end it is like I am standing on a plateau thinking: What comes next? What is the purpose? Four years ago I was sick and that was something that stopped me in my tracks for a while. Shortly after I decided to get married. A lot of unexpected things happened at the same time, which in some ways turned my life into a rollercoaster. There were situations that had to be dealt with and that could not be put on a shelf for a later date. It was not always an easy time. But as I look back on it now I realise that it was all about building a new foundation within myself; how I see the world, spirit and myself. It was as if every part of me was being dismantled and removed, because they no longer served my purpose as a human being and a husband, or in the work I do with spirit.
This period challenged every fibre of my being almost, and again I found myself in a situation where I was being challenged to tell myself the truth and not deny what needed to be confronted and realised. I am still not quite there, but during this adventure, one could say, it has enabled me to realise many new aspects of myself. Some of it has been painful, some of it exciting. All and all I can say it has given me a greater insight into myself than ever before. These new building blocks has offered me a new foundation.
A few days ago I had a discussion with some of the students attending a course here with us. We were talking about spiritual masters. When I hear such titles I feel uncomfortable, because I believe that every human being is under constant development. There are no masters. Right back to when my journey as a medium started, 40 years ago, my greatest challenge has been to accept the fact that from time to time I have to go back to school; every time I learn to do something new and understand how to use it.
“At this moment in time I am standing at a crossroads where things are starting to happen spontaneously.
However, I have always said we should not search for new opportunities. At this moment in time I am standing at a crossroads where things are starting to happen spontaneously. People are contacting me with new ideas and what they are suggesting kind of fit in with my puzzle. I have a feeling they are going to help me with my purpose in the next phase of my life. I have had to learn to not to be so impulsive, that can lead to mistakes.
Four years ago I had reached a plateau and was comfortable with everything, but low and behold, my guide Ascala visited me and said:
– I am now going to remove the burden from your shoulders, because what spirit has planned for you is about completing the promise you gave to us. How you would work and serve spirit.
At first I did not want to let things go, so they had to have a little struggle with me, but then I realised that a comfort zone is only good for a short time.
I cannot say that the puzzle is complete yet, but I feel much lighter now and begin to realise what that burden actually was. Had I continued carrying it I would not have been able to enter the next stage of my life. I have new things to do; writing (at least a couple of books), do some more work with research. I hope I can use my skills to help solve certain mysteries. And I would like to have a little bit more time for myself.
Anyway, I will keep you posted! If you recognise something about yourself in this text, please make a comment below.