Since I decided to put up the school for sale something really strange has happened. The more I think about it, the stronger I feel, for me it certainly is the right decision. The confirmation comes from how I feel. I am getting a sense of space that I have not felt for quite a few years, it feels exhilarating. My enthusiasm is coming to the surface more.
I wonder where this pathway will take us? To unknown territory, new challenges, a new place to put down roots. I have not quite landed yet, but I am certainly aware of that this decision has given me a sense of freedom again. Some people have said: “Why are you doing this?”
I have appreciated what I have had so far. At this moment in time I have no point of reference, but wherever it will take us, I wonder what new opportunities it will bring. What new people will come into my life? It is very interesting, and I hope the feeling of freedom will last. Ascala has prepared me for this. He is really tricky by offering bits here and there, never answering my questions, just giving me enough information to continue.
Another interesting thing is that people are inviting me to do new things, and my thinking is: I have never been there before, this is going to be interesting. As I ask Ascala:
– Where are you taking me? and he answers:
– I cannot tell you right now, I do not wish to spoil what you will find when your ship reaches its destination.
As I am making this journey to an unknown place, again it is teaching me new things and giving me time to think. I know you cannot tell spirit what to do, but whatever it will be, I feel self-assured.
“I do not know the outcome of all of this, but one thing I do feel is that it will be an interesting journey.
I do not want to know the outcome of everything, I just want to enjoy each step of the way, without having to control everything or sending spirit a thousand questions every day. I have realised that I am letting go of something, something that do not serve me the way I am used to. I believe I have a more open mind now, because I am excited again. It is like at Christmas time and you see all the presents underneath the Christmas tree. You do not dare open them, you touch them and shake them, but it does not give you any real information about what is in the packet.
About three months ago Ascala came to meet me and started talking about the changes I had made, he also talked about things that will happen for me. He did not tell me what, he just said:
– Even you will find it hard to believe.
I do not know the outcome of all of this, but I do feel is that it will be an interesting journey. We shall just see. I feel like I am crossing a bridge from an old phase of life to a new one. Ascala seem to have taken control, but really, he has just been there nudging me a bit in the right direction.
What I do like about this phase I am going through now is that I feel at peace, my mind is open without big expectations or demands. Just as Ascala has taught me to be. I do feel in the moment, I feel present, but when the ship reaches its shore and I come to the end of one phase and can see the beginning of a new it is always an exciting time.