I am sitting here working with Viktoria and I say to her: “I do not have a clue what I am going to write today.” Then suddenly, going completely off the subject, she turns to me and asks: “How are you feeling today?” Then I realise, this could be an interesting topic to write about: How am I feeling today? I am feeling a little tired, but happy. I am feeling very optimistic about the future. It is almost as if the spirit world is doing a reconstruction programme on my mind. It is like I am going through a transition time of leaving behind an old phase of my life and I standing on the threshold of something completely new. I am feeling restless, almost impatient. It is as if my batteries are being recharged. However, I do not know why or wherefore. Whatever that new phase will hold or entail, at the moment that information or direction is being withheld.
It gives me a feeling of excitement and new hope, fresh stimulus, but a realisation that change is inevitable. Could it be that the spirit world are going to offer new challenges that will take me into new dimensions? This is certainly a day when my feet feel as if they are on very solid ground, even though I know that I am still in a no-mans-land experiencing this period. It is a bit like being on a starting line of a race and you are raring to go. I am beginning to have a sense of a profound feeling of calmness. I wonder where that came from.
As I write another feeling comes to the fore, working together with my old friend and colleague gives a warm and comfortable feeling. Suddenly I feel happy and then as I ask myself: Why am I happy? I see a picture and it is of me. My feet are firmly attached to this earth and I realise that within myself I have found something new. These days it is nice to go home and it is nice to share that home with somebody else. So, I suppose I am feeling really good, because as I took the time to write this text I begun to see even more of the good things I have in life. Therefore, whatever is happening in my life, all I have to do is stop a while, take that necessary pause and start a conversation with myself, and that is just what I have been doing: Terry, how are you feeling today?
I believe that if we were to ask ourselves that question every day and take time out, just for a few minutes, it would be a perfect opportunity to catch up with ourselves. Before Viktoria asked me this question, whatever grey clouds were in my mind they begun to fly away and the sun begun to shine.
How are all of you feeling today? Do you have that kind of dialogue with yourself where you ask yourself that question?