Many people questioned me when I decided to sell up and move, they were surprised. I knew that my time was done in Fanthyttan and that it was time for a new era. It is always important to realise when something has served its purpose. When you have the realisation that it is time for something new, unfortunately many people never move on, they get stuck and do not dare to cross the bridge to something new. They are afraid of what the future will hold.
Yes, I had many happy years in Fanthyttan, but with a lot of responsibility. Good times and sometimes difficult times. I got to meet countless people that have offered me so much. That was a journey that helped me realise the importance of doing the best job I could. But in the end I felt: What more can I do? I became so absorbed with the work in the school it became routine. Ascala urged and said: “There are new things we want you to do for us.”
”People ask me: “Do you not miss Fanthyttan?” No, but I look back at it with good memories, it is something that I can never forget. I met so many amazing people. They were a gift that touched my soul and that can never be forgotten. When I left, I brought with me 15 years of beautiful memories. Whenever I open that box within my mind and remember something, that is my reward.
After my first visit in Vänersborg I just felt a connection. Now I have had time to think and feel: Who am I now? What are my needs now? Ideas are coming, I am in no hurry. I am waiting for a knock on my door, an opportunity, and that will be the road map for the future. These last few months have given me time to catch up with myself, somethings that I have neglected or taken for granted. I am looking forward to a new phase of my life. I now have more time to reconnect with Terry and ask my soul what it needs. We can give so much to others that there is not always time for ourselves and that can deplete our energy.
I am talking to someone about continuing with the research and I have new ideas of thinking and being. It is about exploration, not working for a living. I am optimistic, it has been nice to have time to think and not having high demands on you. I am open to receiving new feelings and energy.
When we were making our wish list we wanted to be in a village, see the countryside, but not too far from town. We have found our place. It did not look exactly the way I had planned, but suddenly this modern house popped up! Exactly what we needed, without us realising it. It is comfortable, I do not have to work as hard as I did in Fanthyttan, fixing the school and my private house.
The people that bought the school wanted the same, they wanted something they did not have to fix. I had a wish, that the school would go back to the children and now it has. This is another memory that I will carry with me.
We are never too old to dream, I look forward to my new road without demands. Spirit knows what I am ready for and what I am meant to do. I now have the time in my life to do new things.
Sometimes it is time to know when to let go and move on. If we hang on to everything, we do not allow change to knock on our door.
Take care and enjoy each day as it comes!