These last eighteen months, when I have been doing the Mountain Meditation, it has not had the same effect on me as it normally does. I was aware of that there was a process going on within me that I was not quite in touch with. I had a conversation with my friend Ingela, who is also a good medium. She said:
– Ascala cannot get through to you, because you are shut off.
– That cannot be true, I talk to him every day! But he had actually been saying to me:
– You do not need to do the meditation the way you have done before.
I had replied:
– But that is the way I like to do it myself, I like going through the process of the mediation.
I was being a bit resistant and stubborn, but in his subtle ways he tried to point out to me:
– I am beginning to become a part of your everyday reality. It is like I am just in the next room to you, so you do not need to do the meditation the same way any longer.
I was beginning to realise that he was trying to tell me that my frequency had changed. I had learnt to go from one level of consciousness to another, without realising it. It could happen within a second. This is what he was trying to tell me. It was also a result of the frequency research in China.
– As you have developed over the years you have allowed me to become a much bigger part of you, which gives me such access to you than I never have had before. In return you have better access to me. You can see this for yourself. You can see that what I wish for us to achieve has expanded.
I still wanted to do it my own way, I wanted to climb my mountain my usual way. I was still stuck in my mind-set, but a few days ago I had the surprise of a life time. I was in the field in the meditation, about to begin my journey. Then Ascala invited me to walk through this door. As I went in to his sphere he showed me everything that he had been working on with me, the research etcetera. He talked about me as a person and how I had changed.
As the years have gone on I have had to leave behind so many mind-sets that no longer serve me. Now I have a quality to my life that I have never had before, both on a personal and emotional level. Ascala has taught me another way of giving love and receiving it. Interestingly enough, my wife Astrid’s children and my beloved mother in law has made me much more open. I realise that her family also is my family, where we see one another the way we really are and there is a feeling of appreciation and respect. I am realising what gift that has given me and how my old mind-sets at times prevent me from seeing what I already have. Mind-sets blind us to what actually can be. Now I can feel that Astrid’s family is my family. Families do not need to be biological. This past four weeks has been one realisation after the other.
Astrid and I have had quite an interesting journey so far. She made me realise something the other day that I had not completely realised myself.
– In meeting you, she said, I realised that I had to leave behind an old feeling that no longer serve me, but along the way I have discovered a new feeling. I am not just one any more, there is two of us. In recognising these things I have been able to leave behind old things.
In sharing that with me, I understood. I realised that I had been going through the same process.
Then I hear Ascala saying:
– When people offer their prayers and ask for unconditional guidance. As we give guidance and influence you it is a process, not everything can be given at once or understood immediately.
Love cannot demands its own way. Love is a connector that inspires us, true love is the essence of bringing souls together. The expression” love and light” makes me think, if we can love unconditionally without demand our own way, surely that is what brings us to the light – and when I talk of light I mean self-awareness that makes us aware of how we can be.
I have no idea where this new awareness is going to take me, but one thing I know, I have a new mind-set that I have not had before.
I just wanted to share this with you.