I would like to share something with you that I have experienced quite intensely for the last three months. Spirit is coming to me and they are showing me many different things. It feels as if I am being prepared for something. It feels as if I am going through this amazing transition. It is a bit like spirit is handing me pieces of a jigsaw puzzle and a picture is starting to take form. I have a lot of activity around me.
I have a good feeling of anticipation, but I would not be able to understand it completely even if I tried. I just know that something is about to change in a way that I have never experienced before. I get pictures, words and feeling. I just receive without trying to analyse. That would be pointless. It is a lot like being confused, but when I am in this place, I know that change is about to happen.
I feel that parts within that I have not been in touch with before are about to open up. It is like being out at sea without a map. I just have to follow the journey. This is preparing me for something and opens up my mind to possibilities that I did not anticipate.
A lot of people see this as a negative confusion and they just want the answer straight away, in a nice little package. But I see it as a preparation for something new. It has happened a couple of times before in my life. I am taken in new direction towards something that I do not fully understand yet.
This is necessary for our development. We want things to happen now, but that will not teach us anything. The process teaches us to be patient and to not take things for granted, not listening to the ego telling us what it wants. Every time I get this information it shows me that I am being prepared to cross a line and go into another part of my life. Of course, I can feel impatient, but I know I have to say “No, Terry” and take one day at a time.
I have begun to think about new things that I would like to do in my life, it comes up as pictures in my mind, but I am not sure. I know what I would like to do, but the interesting thing is that the way spirit works with me my enthusiasm comes to life. I am interested and curious. I certainly need new stimulus, something to work on, something to understand. This is what inspires me, wanting to understand new things. There will always be obstacles and bridges to cross, and things cannot happen until we are emotionally ready. It is a matter of time.
I am not deciding what is going to be or how it is going to be. I am curious about how it is going to unfold. Ascala has taught me this. I have not always been the most patient student, but we are getting closer to one another and I am beginning to understand what he needs and what he is trying to convey to me.
I have a need to be challenged, so that I do not go into a mundane way of thinking. I have always been like that. It is amazing when you go through these periods, how your energy and sense of security builds and develops. It will be what it will be.
The only way these new doors will open is when I reach a moment of self-realisation. As it happens things start happening much more spontaneously. At this point in my life this is crucial. I have no wish to completely retire, but my hope is that the rest of my journey will be interesting and eventful until the day it is time for me to go and join my friends in the universe.
When you find yourself in a transition, do not be impatient, just let it happen.
I will keep you updated. We shall see what will happen…