Some time ago I said to Ascala: I need time for myself. I asked him to give me some space and he has showed me that respect. To date he pays me a visit occasionally, but he keeps a certain distance.
Ascala has always been there for me to offer support and help when it has been needed. It is very easy to fall into a trap, when you have a friend like Ascala. There is a risk that you can become too dependent on them and their guidance.
I have been going through a process that has enabled me to make some very important decisions and once they have come into effect and become a reality in my life then I will update all that it concerns and those who are interested. The fact is that I have come to a crossroads in my life where I need to make some changes. I had a situation a little while ago, that was a real awakening and I just knew now is the time to go to the new phase of my life. I want to do new things. If we do not accept new challenges we stagnate and stagnation is not good. I still enjoy my work, but need new challenges. My wish is that the step I am going to take is going to synchronise with what Ascala feel is best for me and our partnership, for our future.
“I am very curious to see where this is going to take me, now that I have made a decision.
Do these words come from me or is it Ascala guiding me, where he is standing at distance observing everything I do? Whether it is my idea or Ascalas I suddenly wish to do different things with my life, not just work, but also things that I have not been able to do for a long time because of work. It is about having more time for myself. This is the most exciting thing about Ascala, when he takes me on these journeys into a no-mans-land where I have never been before. It deepens my trust for him and I develop, but I also develop new skills.
My connection with Ascala started 49 years ago, consciously, when my journey as a medium started. Since that point my life has been a true adventure with many big changes. Nothing can remain the same forever. I need stimulus and a purpose, a vision. A part of my future is to pursue my writing. I also want to have more time for research. I am very curious to see where this is going to take me, now that I have made a decision.
“I still have many things left to do here on earth, in this incarnation.
My new plans are about giving myself time to do things that I have wanted to do for many years. It would be nice to have time for fishing, take the boat or the canoe out, but I do not believe retirement is for me. I often make the joke, when it is time for me to pass over and I hear Ascala say: Now we are ready to receive you, I will probably say: No, I cannot come now. I am too busy doing things. Having said that I do not think I am going any where any time soon. I still have many things left to do here on earth, in this incarnation. As far back as I can remember I have always had that urge to explore and think outside of the box.
I have heard Ascala’s voice: “Now this ship called Creative Experiences is being prepared and we are taking on board everything we think we will need for this journey.” Where it will take us, I do not know, but my wish is that it will take us to new horizons. Having said that, Sweden is my home. This is where I want to be.