It is interesting when you come to a time in your life, kind of as if you are entering a new phase, where you have to start being honest with yourself. If you are not, life has a way of reminding you.
I have always been a very active person, that is in my genes. People always ask me when I am going to retire. I can never retire from what I work with, I still have a gift and a very active brain. Chronologically I am a pensioner, the problem is I do not see that or accept that fact. Lately my body has started saying: “Slow down a little bit. It is time for you to learn to conserve your energy.” I love my work, but I suddenly realised, this is becoming too much. My spirit is willing, but I had to reconcile that I no longer had the same kind of energy as when I was younger. So, the question is: What do I do?
Ascala came to me the other day and said:
– We want you to use your energy to create a new future for yourself. I asked:
– What do you mean? He laughed.
– Even though you do not have all the answers yet we do not want you to stop teaching. We want you to show people how you use your skills in a more advanced way.
– I am in transition now, I said.
– Yes, do you think that is your own plan? We want you to open up your world of spirit more, how it works, not just for a medium, but how people can allow their soul to speak to them.
That is in part why I am now thinking about not doing the same courses any longer. There are others teaching mediumship. In the educations that I have had down through the years, many have established themselves as mediums in their own right. So, throughout Sweden there is an incredible network of mediums.
The little I have learned about spirit I would like to share with others so that they might discover something new about themselves. I would like to open new doors for people who wish to move on and come a step nearer to harmony between soul, spirit and one’s life mission. My thought is to share my awakening to inspire others to follow their own pathway. Not to convert anyone. It gives me a great deal of pleasure when people discover who they are and take responsibility for their lives and gifts. There is never a plateau that we reach, if we believe that we are “there” then we just close the door to learning. For me learning never stops not even after we have passed.
Where I am in my life right now, I put my trust in the higher intelligence, sometimes I guess have disappointed them a bit. I can be a bit stubborn… I am much more aware of that it is time to treat myself, Terry the person, with more respect.
I am not full of expectation or any demands on how it has got to be. I just sit in a quiet place together with Ascala, waiting. He promises me he will send me people who will offer inspiration. I want to live out my years in freedom, with purpose and creativity. I do not wish to feel stuck or to stagnate. I want to move on and explore new dimensions within myself.
It is time to let the past go.