People keep on asking me: When are you going to retire, Terry? What would I do? Yes, I enjoy being in my garden and walking out into nature and I like to restore old furniture. I find it therapeutic to work with my hands and create nice things, but these interests are just part of who I am.
When I look back over my life I realize what an incredible journey it has been to work as a medium, to develop a relationship with my spirit guides, and to learn to listen to them, not just hear them. I think about the thousands of people I have met both in my work and in my private life. They have come into my life with their own knowledge and skills that have taught me so much. Some have become lifetime friends and others have taken different pathways, but the friendship they have offered has left an indelible mark upon my soul.
The myriad of experiences I have had have taught me so much and brought to the fore other kinds of intelligence I did not know I had, and these skills that were awakened as I made my journey as a medium have proved to be valuable tools that have equipped me to reach a point where I am in my life today. It has taken hard work and commitment to develop those skills; to communicate with people with more empathy and tolerance, and daring to take risks when given the guidance of my spirit team e.g. when my ego wanted me to take another direction. That wise counsel never told me what to do, they always left the choice to me. Helping me develop a better understanding of myself and hopefully teaching me to become more responsible for my actions.
When people have come to me to seek my services as a teacher or as a medium I have experienced magic moments. I have witnessed the moments of joy when some have realized that life continue after death. To witness their joy of realization as a teacher, when they have taken a risk, and begun to realize their own potential, discovering something about themselves that could bring a better quality to their lives. Those moments touched my heart, and made my own struggles and hard work worthwhile.
For everybody that have visited my life over these years, friend or foe, the experience that they had to offer have proven to be for me the gift of learning. Without my struggles I would not have known my victories, without the difficulties I would not have realized my strengths, but whatever the circumstance, it has brought me much closer to the spirit counterparts that I work with. Who offer friendship love and guidance, without condition. One thing I respect them for; they have encouraged me to find my own point of view and work with my own truth that is natural and unique for me. It has been my responsibility to take the risks and make my own decisions, and that has been vital in my development as a medium and as a human being.
There have been difficult times when I have not been able to give people what they need when they have come to a private consultation. There have been times when they desperately have wanted to hear from a loved one, and it was difficult to realize that I could not give the client the information they wanted, a constant reminder that I am just a neutral channel and that it is the team that decide who will come.
To work as a teacher and help someone meet their fears and feelings of inadequacy that only serve to inhibit the process of their development, have proved to be a hard struggle for me. I have had my success stories and my disappointments. How often have I had to make the decision as a medium or a teacher to offer the truth as opposed to telling people what they wanted to hear, that was tough, but an important part of the journey.
When new opportunities have just come my way through various means that I had not consciously sought, they just came out of the blue. At those times I asked my spirit team: What do you think? Is this right for me? Is it what you wish so I can follow a pathway that is right for me and my soul? They would give me their opinion, but each time I took an intelligent risk of course I found myself in a no-mans-land of uncertainty: What will happen? And by taking one day at a time with patience and diligence those risks bore fruit allowing me to expand upon my intellect, life experience, and once again giving me new tools to work with. Yes I have met my failures and my successes, but what would my success mean if I did not realize the failure. My journey has shown me clearly that both failure and success is necessary and go hand in hand.
I talk with my spirit friends every day, or they talk to me, sometimes the conversation is short, sometimes longer, but that point of contact we share prove to be invaluable, and how I meet the events of that day as a person and my reaction to what it offers.
My journey has brought me to this paradise of Fanthyttan, a place that is beautiful, and the friendship and the hospitality that have been offered by those who live in the village that is a blessing, one that is not taken for granted. I have my garden to work in, and I have my close friends to be with. I have found the way in which I want to live my life and in writing this article I realize that I have been living my dream consciously since the age of 22. What an adventure it has been!
So, I am left with this thought: How could I possibly ever retire from this? Because if I were to do so, I would be retiring from my life. I have everything I need in the here and now and the inspiration and motivation to continue my journey. Of course, as my body becomes older that could slow me down physically, but hopefully not my mind or my spirit. So in my heart I never wish to retire, just to continue this incredible journey as Terry.