I would like to share a text with you that I wrote in November of 2018. Little did I know at that time that I two years later would have sold my course centre and moved to Vänersborg…
As far back as I can remember Ascala, my guide, has been with me. Whenever he feels that an order within no longer works for me it suddenly begins to be removed, and it leaves me with the feeling of being in a no man’s land – what is going to happen? When I have said to Ascala: “Show me which direction I should take”, he will set the wheels in motion when he thinks it is appropriate.
Often when the process of change begins it is very difficult to let go of the old order and embrace change and what it actually means. It can leave you with the feeling of uncertainty and vulnerability. To a point it can bring about a feeling of chaos; where do I put my foot next? So many people yearn for change, but when it happens they are too afraid to leave an old order behind that no longer serves their soul. Not until you face your feelings and your vulnerability will new doors open. Our ego inhibits us, it does not desire change and it only demands control.
I had a very strange experience the other night; I had problems sleeping, which is quite unusual for me. Suddenly I felt the presence of Ascala, so I left the bedroom and went to the living room not to wake my wife up. As I sat in there listening to the storm raging outside the house, I heard a banging sound and thought: Has the wind damaged something? But everything was as it should be. Then again, I felt Ascala’s presence. He smiled a warm and friendly smile: When you heard that banging sound, you went to investigate. That was just my way of getting your attention, telling you that everything within yourself is okay, there is nothing wrong. I know that you also have been investigating the rooms within your spiritual house, and as you noticed all is well.
As you cross the bridge of change of course it will bring anxieties and concerns. It is a difficult time for all human beings, when you accept the voice of your soul telling you that it is time to move on and create a new order so that you can progress.
I know that you trust me. I have been setting new seeds with you, Terry. These seeds come up into your conscious mind as feelings and thoughts. I see the work you have done on letting go of the old and bringing in the new. It is good to see that you are adding new rooms to your spiritual home. These new rooms will represent new work that you will be doing, some of which is imminent. I can assure you that the thoughts and feelings you have had are taking you in the right direction. Soon the new work that I am going to introduce to you will show itself.
As I have said before, Terry: I am part of you and you are a part of me. It is my job to guide you so that you can develop new potential and cross new frontiers. Together we can achieve your life’s purpose.
There is a saying in the Christian church: “Thy will be done”. When you say that without conditions that allows your soul to vibrate and evolve, and it allows us to become closer, Terry. The process of change can then speed up.
I watched you working in Gamla Byskolan during the summer months. I heard you say: “There is another reason we are doing this work, but I do not understand right now. ”I walked with you every step, sometimes as an observer and sometimes as a companion.
As you sit quietly during the night, listening to the wind outside. That is but a reflection of what you have experienced during this time of transition. Soon we will both be standing together on the foundation of the new order that we have created.